Grayseko

YASSSSSSS STAND UP WOORI

It’s absolutely heartbreaking reading the beginning chapters and seeing how animated and lively Erna is. Her spirit is so bright and curious. She finds joy in the most beautiful things and she’s such a kind soul and she was also raised to be kind as well(naive at times but still stubborn enough to counter her naivety) . It’s so hard seeing her slowly break and lose her spirit chapter after chapter, just reading the things that all of the maids/workers at the estate were saying about her, and the way that the royal family treats her, AND to put the nasty cherry on top the way Bjorn treats her and talks to her as if she’s an object. Her losing the baby I think was definitely a sign of her condition and from the universe that Bjorn and her relationship would not work regardless and I think as heartbreaking as it was not having the baby gave Erna an opening to leave. And I’m glad she did (hopefully in her time away she can properly grieve her baby). Bjorn is too caught up in his perception of her and what he thinks she wants, as much as he thinks what he is doing is for her, it’s NOT. Because everything he’s doing “for her” is only to make himself feel good. He does things out of his ego and that is his downfall. If he truly loved Erna he would take into consideration Erna’s thoughts, feelings, and her being as a human. But bc he’s in love with the idea of her, he doesn’t see her for herself and objectifies her. Not to mention his insensitivity about the miscarriage and then treating her as if she’s a baby making machine. I also can’t get over the fact that he thought it was okay that if the public never knew the truth about princess gladys that Erna and the baby would be ridiculed for the rest of their lives but that didn’t matter, because he loved them…. He keeps saying he loves but I’ve never(or barely) seen him defend her when the public did criticize and EAT HER ALIVE. I have so much more to say but I know that she’s eventually gonna end up with Bjorn but if I were Erna no amount of groveling or apologizing would ever make me go back to him. I cannot forgive him, I cannot forgive his family ESPECIALLY THE BITCHY ASS SISTER(his family was absolutely complicit in harming Erna, as he was too) and I absolutely cannot forgive the public for tearing her down. I truly hope she’s able to stay in the countryside and live out of the public eye even if she ends up back with Bjorn. They don’t deserve her joy and beauty. She gets to reclaim that for herself and hopefully her baby. Lol okay essay over