hataki's manga / #PTSD(5)

can't sleep from nightmares and PTSD. co-workers voice is soothing and makes him fall asleep. wind up living together. PTSD every single time he sleeps. from his childhood. he was left home alone for several days alone in the dark and staving as a chilld. mom left and died in a hit and run. dad was on a business trip and wasn't home for several days. (the other guy keeps kissing him in his sleep without saying anything. then kissed him awake. he was still suffering too much and barely finding peace. i would of preferred he waited a little longer.)

accident with all three of them in the car head on collision instantly killed parents he walked away with a blow to the head and a broken arm. his male relative was the only thing he had left. in his fear and anxiety he became his everything. and his anxieties sky rocked. his trauma and PTSD had him trying to get more from him than he was willing to give. because they were family (no. he wasn't in love with him. it was more a mental breakdown) he felt too embareesaed being rejected. he stayed away for a time. Falling to the clutches of a shitty guy who did drugs, and gave him drugs and forced him into sex. for a long time. by the time he pulled away. he was so beaten (physically beaten and mentally) he went to school. to the roof top . with every intention of ending his life. ran into the beautiful long haired blonde beauty. they quickly started dating and falling in love. fully bearing all their scars and past issues to one another seeking comfort and love from one another. both hate themselves. but love each other fiercely. helped him reconnect and make up with his male relative. -our seme too, hates himself, and has a darkness inside of him. he was born and abandoned. his father, his mother, and his half-brothers all tossed him away like garbage.

nothings happened so far with them they both clearly have feelings our gay guy (black haired), knows already. our straight (white haired), is in denial. white haired guy has always been color blind. ' for whatever reason he only saw a shinning burst of color around this guy. he followed him. whenever he holds his finger or hands, he can see and experience lights and colors to their fullest. got hired on by our black haired designer as a temp. assistant. for the 2 weeks his girl was gone. (lol. LOVE his girl. she knows him inside and out. even kicks his ass into gear to help him get the other guy to stay later) our black haired guy was betrayed by his ex-boyfriend / step-brother. stole and plagiarized his work. but alas, only our guy caught the backlash from it. suffers trauma and withdrawal thanks to him. at the time. he was in the hospital for stress in the past. some people were real nasty. even put razors in the muffins he ate there. messed with his drinks in the past too. this created a phobia and eating disorder. when these two first met. they went out. he refused to drink the alcohol he got him. or eat the cake either. once he caved to eat even one bite. he wound up puking and passing out. he was avoiding everything until he met this guy. he protects him. he does his job properly. he is a friend. he is some one he confides in. had a lot of gasterital related problems. ate only noodles from the store, coffee, and these meat sticks. he tossed it all out moved in with him and cooked all his meals for him. managing his stress and food intake. later had surgery too. related to GI problems. stomach acid was burning a literal hole into his stomach. moved back in with him here. poor guy in unrequited love. trusts this guy completely. (still has yet to come forward about his being color blind) -small things pile up over time both have complicated and rejecting families. they both have shitty brothers whom their parents put first. black haired is adopted from an orphanage. his ex is back in the picture and bat shit crazy. -ch. 74 boring as hell....

-has an aversion to meat. wont eat it. in detention center, was forced into eating human flesh/ meat full past has yet to be revealed. interesting onto - 129 1 Breaking Through the Clouds / Poyun 2. Breaking Through the Clouds 2: Swallow the Sea __________________________ he and the captain keep arguing as he is newly added to their team. he seems to hate outsiders joining their team. he got in on a special placement from a high up point. (No. they don't know any of his full background it seems). he is currently looking for a place to survive. to force himself to keep moving forward. to forget whatever happened to him. since we lasst saw him: 12 years of police service. some years in a group. / or undercover. with alias "painter". real name not known. bounty on his head. price for his head. or his location. he was previously held somewhere and beat and tortured. has a massive bird tattoo on his back. suffering PTSD right now. has his past service guys constatnly tailing him (waiting to report him for the 1st miss-step taken) can't stand to look at dead body. (was fine with this in OG series. Now it's triggering) he and current captain fight often. he notices a nasty back wound and takes him to the hospital for treatment. paid for it and took him home. -______________________________ Our commander guy: elitist type on the outside. both parents were cops. seems they were tortured for information while he and his brother his inside a closet. they were looking for someone with the alias "painter". he and the brother ran off to live. swearing to get revenge. Their parents friends took them in. they are cops too. the man, the Chief of police. naturally he followed the same path. no signs or mentions of the brother _________________________________ My other MC guy spent time in prison almost 13 years ago. was leader in of one of the gangs in there. may or may not of happened after they jumped and or tried to sexually assault him. injured guys. crushed ones head in with a brick. another stabbed with glass in the stomach. and another, he cut his arm off. prison was terrified of him. during riot, guards beat him half to death. drug his bloody, mangled body away to infirmarry. supposedly broke out of the prison that day. via the sewers and guys in a truck out at the end, took him away. Later, was granted the famous title of "National Second class hero Model" there are less than 1,000 to receive such a privileged title. the deed required alone to receive it comes at deadly costs. _______________________________________ they still suspect he is somehow involved in Zhang Boming's suicide dive off the hospital rooftop they were both rooming at the time. he didn't do anything (or so he days) - the guy was his one and only contractor -his boss when he worked undercover. -leader of their post in the academy. -his commander at the time.