Holy shit...this was cathartic to read....like the scenes of him going off the rails, excessive drinking, promiscuity, treating everything as a joke is such a scarily accurate portrayal of a trauma response. He is literally trying everything in his power to feel anything at all that is not absolute terror and anxiety. He's grasping at anything solid which just so happens to be his friend that he's emotionally dumping everything on especially now that he knows he went through a similar situation. The desperation in his actions is so visceral it made me feel physically sick.
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