Looking For Yaoi Manga

is it just me or has anyone else been searching for new yaois/bls that are on the longer end/more emotionally investing to no avail? like things are really drying up lately... i have not had any luck with finding some reread worthy short djs or rom-commy manhwas ;( like i want the sexy stuff without it being too serious, rapey, or depressing, but still have it being interesting and engaging..

some of the stuff i like:
sign, bj alex, all about lust, oh my assistant, ameiro paradox (or just check out this list: http://www.mangago.me/home/mangalist/660335/ )

also i get pretty picky (and i trust everyone else as viewers) and stick to reading ones that are 9.0+! let me know if you guys happen to have any suggestions :)

p.s. pls pls pls be sure that they arent any psychological/realy dramatic ones (not feeling it rn)

Its about the uke and the seme attending a party, they spend the night together but upon waking up they agree that they should forget what happened . The uke realize his feeling to the seme and didn't forget what happened that night, but the seme feel rhe same way . The seme likes a girl who is the bestfriend of the uke and that girl is inlive with another guy. The uke always ask the seme to go out with him but the seme reject him everytime , he said that he like a girl and not with the same gender. Well theres another party which where the seme push the uke and the uke falls into puddle and leave his house running ,while the seme told him to die . After that the uke have an accident where he loss his memories and emotions.

So I was reading this yaoi this last year (I guess) and I forgot the title huhuーI only remember is
-It's about friendships (huhu)
-The seme has cold eyes and black haired
-The uke is tough he has a brown short haired
-the style of the comic is created by watercolors (I guessー)
-I remembered the cover! The one is standing (uke) his hands is inside on his jacket's pocket, the seme is sitting beside of himー

Pls if anybody knows the title. It's been a hour since I started lookingーI did even look the tags but noーThank you guys if you found this yaoi! Luv u all kekek(TдT)(TдT)

hi does anyone know the title of a bl manhua/manhwa/webtoon where the first chapter of the story the guy was trying to commit suicide by jumping off the building? i cant rmb the title...but the story is in scrolling format and it's fully coloured!