Toxic Parents

Yeah, mh-mh, yeah, I- yeah, totally agree, aha.

She kicks me out anytime shes in a bad mood....then when she needs something from me she acts all nice. I told her I'm scared of leave the house because of social anxiety and she tells me to go find a homeless shelter to live at. She also told me to go kill my self when I told her I didn't want to be alive. But after all these interactions she just buys me something and acts all nice the day after. She makes feel bad when I get angry with her or don't do my chores (she acts like im the maid and babysitter). She a single parent and imagrant so I feel like shes been treated worse then I ever have and don't like feeling this way but I can't help it. My family says I should be grate full I have mom like her.

So today, I'm just here to rant about my older sister. She gets annoyed very easily and all and I get that but I just hate how she takes it out on me. Like for example, she literally play this one game and whenever she loses or is losing and I ask or tell her something like "Imma go cook" or "What are you doing?" She just glares at me and says shut up or be quiet. And then she expects me to not get pissed at her and later when she feels better, and I still feel pissed at her, she expects me to follow her mood. She also invades my privacy but wont let me into hers. Like she wants me to let her meet all my friends but she wont let me meet hers and see their coversation when she ex0ects to see mine with my friends.and when I vc with them, she gets really loud talking to her other friends and make unnecessary noises. And when I make a slight noise when she vc's she gets angry at me and mites herself and yells at me to be quiet. Last of all, she lies. It happened a long time ago but I feel like its still happening. A long time ago she was mad at her friend and made me text him in her stead. During the conversation He asked "Did you apologize to your sister for burning her?" I took it to her and asked her about it and she said "oh, it must be a figure of speech or something." I knew very well it wasnt one as it wasnt the first time I caught her but decided to just ignore that but I feel that its still happening bc all her friends dont have a good impression of me at all.

Sorry for the long rant but I just wanted to let it all out. Feel free to rant too.