Real Life Problems

what are YOUR bl pet peeves. for example mine is miscommunication and a whiny weak bottom that doesn't stand up for himself. or a rushed plot. feel free to give examples i'm bored and want to rant

FOR EXAMPLE. right now i'm really pissed about yours to claim. it's really still ongoing..

Okay so, im really confused on what I want tbh.. I want to know if anyone else is having the same experience and can share some advice.

So basically, I am really confused on whether I want a romantic relationship or just something similar to the sort?

I dont want a sexual relationship, I hate kissing and the thought of having sex makes me afraid and disgusted. I want someone who I can rely on and in return they can rely on me. I want someone to hold close and to share my thoughts and feelings with. Someone who I can share words of affection with.

However, I haven't come even close to developing feelings for somebody and im afraid I never will. I am young (not disclosing my age for safety reasons ofc.) and im sick of people telling me I will eventually. Because if I’ve gone this long without even feeling attracted to some besides the normal ‘Oh, they’re pretty.’ What will even change in the future? Will i all of a sudden unlock romantic attraction after a certain age? Am i just not normal? I feel so frustrated and confused. I cant even tell my friends this because I feel they wont understand because they like other people have had feelings for other people and have dated before. I dont want to have to lie to someone to get these wants met, I want to feel loved and I want to love somebody.
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