What The Heck Is Wrong With Me

Ever since I was a kid I've always feared what the future may hold for me. Cause I never really had a passion to be something. I never admitted this to my parents or anyone I never felt the want or need to be something, rather I want to do nothing at all. As ridiculous as it probably sounds, trust me I really tried changing my way of thinking in life. I tried to create a dream. Everytime the teachers and my parent would ask me what I want to be in the future I would say the same thing I heard my seatmate told during introduction. I was good at some things, I have good grades I rank number 1 academically atleast. I'm part of the Student Council, I can cook, write poems and other stuff. I can learn really fast but somehow the desire to be something I can't quite get it. I feel like I'm being left behind by everyone

I think this might be an original experience but my favorite made-up game to play a while back was yaoi bingo. I chose a random popular yaoi and saw how long it would take me to get a bingo when all squares are overused bl manwha tropes (in case you were wondering, usually less than 10 chapters). I'll share a picture of the old bingo board I made in the replies.

So... What squares/tropes would you add?

As a vaginal-posessing female, I've noticed that when I'm attracted to men, I act manscular and boyish. But when I'm attracted to women, I am shy and timid, like a fragile little flower ❀

Does this mean I wanna dominate a man but want a woman to dominate me? I'm confusion
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