Having Friends

I have this kinda close of a friend of mine that won't make eye contact and won't face towards me at all. He and I talk alot but he has this small voice that i can't hear really well. I kept trying to make him have eye contact with me so i can try to read his lips or analyze his emotion by looking at his eyes or something just so i can understand and respond to his chatter. FYI, we always talk side to side while walking, sitting or standing. He won't face towards me and he always adjust whenever i get the chance to talk to him face to face. It's been making me frustrated and i don't know if he's intentionally doing this or what....

okay i’m pretty indifferent to many things that my friends do ever since i matured more, but honestly it’s been so stressful especially in HS.

idk why but i’m just so tired of having to act a certain way for them to like me, and the moment i stop they tell me they don’t want to be my friend anymore (we “made” up, i sent them a paragraph and they sent me a couple voice messages which sounded like she was trying not to laugh. also she showed the entire thing to the friends “she didn’t want to involve) because i started just listening more than talking. and i gotten close with one of my other friends and they thought i was fake.

and i just don’t even want to go to school anymore because it’s so stressful, i want to stop being friends with them but i don’t wanna lose the friends in the group we are all in.