Falling Inlove

Just wanted to know What you’re guys top 5 favorite yaoi, it can also be shounen ai. Btw it does not have to be in order. You guys can also write down what you guys like about the yaoi’s or other things(can be paragraphs I just wrote mine short)

Mine is
1.) legs which cannot walk(smut is yummy)
2.) wild city(skipped the middle of the story)
3.) Gosan no Heart(listened to the BLCD)
4.) Crimson Spell(smut was good)
5.) Solar Eclipse(read the raws for it)

so, my next door neighbor from when I was younger was my best friend. our families were also close. I didn't;t know if I liked him then bc I was like 7 but our older brother always embarrassed us by saying we liked each other. ofc I always refused bc I was embarrassed. I think he liked me bc he tried to hold my hand once, when we were walking nome from school. I slapped his hand away and awkwardly walked away. then he got someone to tell me he didn't like me (childish ik, but we WERE 7) . I honestly didn't care but he started to avoid me so I thought our friendship was over forever, especially after he and I both moved away. I thought I would n't see him again but we ended up going the same middle school. and I avoid him at all cost but want to know everything about him. he tried talking to me n stuff but I basically ignored him. I think he thinks I hate him or something. but really I think about him a lot and am embarrassed. I hate it. I just want to forget him but I can't. I really don't think I love him or anything, maybe crush (he is fine) but I can't help think how our story is sooo much like something I would read online, like wattpad. maybe I do like him and denying it but I seriously think I may just be obsessed with out story. if we did end up together that would be romantic. then again I don't think I really like him. but I do think about his a lot. idk what is this. I don't understand my own feelings. we have been classmates for couple of years and didn't talk, though I think we are both aware of each other, until I started going o online school. should I just slide into his dms??????????????/ idk I might love him. and I am a teenage with hormones so idk.

We all have different meaning of what love may be.. but do we actual know what it is?
If the feeling you have is love.. then what is love?
"If you know the reason for why you love that person it's a crush.. and if you don't it's love" said by a wise person. Doesn't that make the word "love" something that can not be explained? So the feeling you have.. do you know if it's love or some other feeling that just doesn't have a word?