Help Me

hi guys. please help me find this manga, i don't remember what happened in this manga that much but I remember a few of it. So, the uke and his mother often visits the shrine nearby their house because his mom is hoping that his father would come back to them. Then the seme was the guardian(?) of the shrine and the uke was able to see him then that's where it starts. The uke often hangout with the seme at the shrine. Also the uke has a friend/classmate who have a cat. The cat loves his friend so much that he wishes to be a human being(?) then it came true then they become a lover. pLEASE HELP ME!!!

so i've been trying to suppress my bad thoughts and it worked a bit but holy shit i feel so exhausted and nervous rn. its hard to explain what i'm feeling tbh. i went outside today and i was able to suppress a lot of bad thoughts and feelings (it was still pretty bad) but now, i'm feeling anxious and i wanna cry for no reason?? has anyone else experienced this?? where they suppressed their emotions abd niw it comes to bite them back in the ass?? how do i fucking fix myself?? please help