Talking With People

Like this person lies to me for the past few convos when we talk. They often use suicide and self harm to make me do something for them. Luckily for me, it was easier to spot nowadays.

Look, I'm not insensitive about these things but when it comes to someone using it to gain something from me, of course I'd get upset and lose trust in someone.

They lie to me often and one time they mentioned to me being suicidal. They said they'd plan to go on a trip with their family to a suicide spot few weeks ago but I told them most airports are closed and it's especially due to COVID, so inside I doubt that they were gonna do it. But the day after they came back like they were okay.

Back then, I told them to ask for professional help or therapy because they told me "they don't trust me."
And like, I was fucking upset, not the fact that they don't trust me but the audicity they fucking had to tell easy lies to my face and tell me inconsisrent bullshit. I don't like it when someone leans on me just because they can, ok?

You know what they said few texts before?
They said they don't take therapy bc they don't like it, but then said it's their second time at therapy few texts later. Hell, excuse me what? And let me tell you we were in the same conversation and they said things like planned out in one day.

But yeah I told them to take care, someone they trust better than me and to be straight up honest to them. They do have personal problems in real life but my past conversations with them lead me to be sketchy of them and I can't help but be sketchy because I don't want to be *used*

We haven't talked so I assume they've ghosted me after that. I didn't feel comfortable at that last convo when I gave them a lot of careful signs like "hey I think you should tell this to someone else well-suited for this and not someone like me who can't provide you any huge support rn"

But no, they brushed it off. Told me they don't have anyone to trust and assumed I didn't care even though it was quarter I gave a fuck after what they've said to me because I told them they shouldn't cover up truths if they wanted me understand their situation properly.

Sigh... everytime they used to cut themselves and show it to gcs, I was the one who worry for them and told they shouldn't do that, while others just stayed quiet. I took their problems seriously. I tried not to mistake it for approval because they just send smiley faces whenever I told them something positive about them after harmful things they do to themselves.
I'm feeling sick to my stomach because I'm beginning to become sketchy. But ever since our last convo, I began to thought "well you know what? fuck it. Have a good life, I hope you don't do whatever bad motives on others if you do."

Like idfk tbh, the thing I can do rn is to not contact them too much hoping they'd realize that they shouldn't use their harmful things to use others.

And what am I to do? Keep trusting them after they've done shit before? Hell no. I doub that they'd really see this, but if they do idfc. I hope they reflect on their bs.



Do you think I'm doing something wrong or not really?