Hemorrhoids

Im so horny rn , i only masturbate anally , and i like it so rough im not satisfied until im bleeding and in pain , now i have hemorrhoids and it hurts when i sit , but i want to masturbate anally what should i do , i tried ointments but its not working it still hurts , and there’s no use to do surgery cause im just gonna mess my ass up again lol , is there like a way to do it with my ass without hurting ?