i need love advice LMFAO

hello, so ya boy reads a bit too much bl and has been in a handful of abusive relationships. because of this, my view on love and such is quite distorted and hard for me to figure out. therefore, i'd like some advice from the expert folks here at mangago LOL

so, there's this guy i've liked for more than half a year now. i like him a lot and i've confessed to him TWICE, and he's rejected me both times really nicely. he tends to tease me a lot and i always get so flustered like plsss mister this ain't a boys love manga

but yeah he's super straight so he'll never like me but idk what to do （/TДT)/ like do i get over him?? if so how?? idk HELPPPPP