I´M CRYING SO MUCH LORD HELP ME

I WAS CRYING SO MUCH SILENTLY IN THE LIVING ROOM READING THE BOOK ´Timeless Melody´, AND ITS 11 PM FOR ME. MY MOM ENTERED THE KITCHEN, IDK WHY BUT THE SECOND SHE DID, I STARTED WAILING, I SOUNDED LIKE THAT KID FROM THAT VINE THE LADY ASKING ´Why are you crying?´ I CRIED FOR 10 MINUTES STRAIGHT, TRYING To SHOW AND EXPLAIN TO MY MOM WHAT WAS GOING ON BUT SHE JUST KEPT LAUGHING. I DON KNOW WHAT TO DO, IḾ STILL CRYING AND I MAY DIE YOUNG FROM THIS OVERWHELMING SADNESS.

Please help me, I´ve never cried this hard, even when family pasts away. AND I THOUGHT I WAS CRYING HARD FOR HAIKYUU BUT THIS IS WORSE, EVERYONE WOKE UP AND THEY DIDN´T KNOW WHAT WAS HAPPENING.

IF THIS BL COUPLE DOES NOT GET THEIR HAPPILY EVER AFTER IN HEAVEN, IM GONNA DIE OK, OK>??????? IM STILL CRYING SO MUCH WHAT DO I DO WITH MYSELF? MY THIGHS ARE SWEATING IT FEELS LIKE WATER.

-HELLISH :(( ┗( T﹏T )┛