... help

im not straight, im not gay, i tend to like guys more than girls and i would VERY MUCH like to have a partner because i feel like im deprived of affection and emotional connection, but it seems that im overall uninterested in people and i cant imagine myself having a sexual relationship w/ a guy or like anyone at all. i read smut and yaoi almost on a daily basis and ofc i get excited but believe me ive lived this long and i have never considered masturbating or having sex... or maybe its just me