any people here are suicidal? (sorry for such a sad question)

I've been suicidal for 2 years now and I'm feeling terribly alone in this experience. I know this isn't the site for this kind of stuff, but sites who relate to this topic are making me feel even worse. so this is site is kind of an outlet for me.
I've been suicidal since I've finished high school 2 years ago because working makes me feel so much anxiety and depression, that I literally cannot do it. I have panic attacks from the stress of being at work and knowing I need to go to work. so basically I'm stressed out all day, and I tried different jobs. (and I'm talking about those "part-time" jobs.) I'm living with my parents who are very emotionally abusive towards me. and I know I'll get kicked out soon. :
The reason why I haven't successfully succeed at killing myself yet was because I'm afraid of heights (which is the best way for me to actually succeed)
again, I know this isn't the website for this kind of thing, but people here are nicer and more open-minded and accepting than the people who are "supposed to help me" or "know what they are doing".
Thank you guys. I want you to know you are the best kind of people
(=・ω・=)

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Mina 29 06,2017

Hi. I've been diagnosed with Major Depression Disorder last year and here's what I've learned. Getting professional help helps a lot. I'm a Psychology major so getting help was a very hard thing for me to do. I thought I was weak for doing it but now I know it doesn't. It made me strong. It actually gave me perspective. Medicine helped me with the ...... 2 reply

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Yuta 29 06,2017

Hey. I know what you're going through all too well. I have struggled with suicide for about 10 years. In fact, I still have my moments. It started mainly from coming to terms with my sexuality and growing up in a family where there is still so much hate and still, no one knows. The feeling of knowing that your family loves but there is that part ...... 1 reply

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Henzu 21 08,2017

Well for me it's kinda stupid: I personally don't accept suicides (bc the problems will move to the other people, only in different forms, and my family'd think it's their fault), but I still hope to die every day by some accident. Every time when I'm walking down the street, I hope for some drunk guy to run over me with his car. Or when I go to sl...... 2 reply

21 08,2017

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.kouen 21 08,2017

i dont know if its called suicidal but i have no plans to kill myself and leave troubles and history. i dont want to be tagged with 'why did she commit suicide' and people who acts like they care dig tge way of life i lived. second, my mother will be tramautized, same with my siblings. im the eldest in the family and we are barely getting by. im q...... 3 reply

21 08,2017

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tigerstripez 29 06,2017

I was. Not anymore. Counselling at the LGBT center and martial arts helped a lot. Now i have some great friends in real life that i can count on. Huuugs. There is sunshine after the rain. The world is a beautiful place and it is better with you in it. 2 reply

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Tanssia 28 07,2017

Hmm. That's actually a really tough question for me to answer bc I'm pretty sure I'm in denial about it even though all the signs and my brain is telling me that yes I am and probably have been since I went to high school. During high school I used to have to take this road that was on a cliff and every day when I would drive home I would imagine j...... reply

28 07,2017

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Lani Pax 30 06,2017

i've been suicidal since I was in 4th grade. I was neglected my my bio-dad (Who is a piece of trash) and just before I went into 4th my mom divorced my step-dad who I considered my real father, etc. Im 16 now and a bit better I don't cry myself to sleep anymore ╮(￣ , ￣)╭ but I did start cutting ┑(￣Д ￣)┍ so your not alone?(�...... 2 reply

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Blu Jewel 30 06,2017

I'm not suicidal but I wanted to say that it is all gonna be alright. At times it is hard to find reasons and have hope in tomorrow especially for those who do not have someone personally cheering them on. However do not continue to feel down and sad as I'm positively sure that somebody or something out there will happen. Despite how small it is fr...... reply

30 06,2017

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cryyone 01 07,2017

Well I'm no longer suicidal but when I went through a mild depression because me and my family had moved to a new country and I've also been diagnosed as epileptic. I did consider killing myself because I felt like a burden to my parents and I couldn't bear seeing them go through so much trouble for me plus I was ashamed of my condition (and I stil...... reply

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Jinx 30 07,2017

I have tried to take my own life 3 times so far. I know it's hard and it can feel really lonely at times and I'm all down for all of the support. Just please don't end up like me. I have been in an institution. it was horrible. It's not something I would wish on my worst enemy! You are WAY stronger than you think! And you are way more beautiful tha...... reply

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