Still fujoshi/fudanshi or not?

Previously I made a big decision in my life. In a way, it helps though it still makes me feel emotional. Okay that's not what I want to ask. When I play in yaoi forums, many make me wonder about it.

All right, I'll share my story.

The first time I knew yaoi was because a friend advised me to get rid of my sadness. She suggests manga that I do not understand. At that time yaoi very strange to me. She suggested a lot of manga, but I chose Kenban no Ue no Caress. And then, I feel weird but so much fun. Then, Sekaiichi Hatsukoi is the first manga I found by accident.

YES GOD I LOVE TAKANO MASAMUNE! HE IS IDEAL TYPE OF MY MEN IN THE WORLD HAHAHAHAHA

For days it become addictive, even I thought I did not mind if I did not eat as long as I could read yaoi. But the last two years made me realize something. And I decided to stop. I've stopped reading yaoi (at least I think so). The last year I tried to forget yaoi because I realized it was wrong. Why wrong? Ah... That's a personal matter I can't say it.

But what I did a year later became a waste because my fudanshi friend just gave me yaoi manga Yukidoke no Koi (THAT'S SENSEI SO DAMN HOT!! My type ideal! Megane and Handsome!) and made me forget the fact that I have forgotten yaoi. And then I found Kashikomarimashita, Destiny. Yep, i love this manga so much!!

I started to question with myself about whether I was still fujoshi/fudanshi or not. What do you think about that? I'm really frustrated now. Orz

And, you guys have your own story? C'mon sharing with me! (づ￣ ³￣)づ