Internalized Homophobia is great!

Because now you’ve spent your whole life picking random boys to have a crush on even though in actuality you’ve never really liked most of them and couldn’t see yourself self dating most of them but just thought that everyone felt the same way about their crushes but when you suddenly start having feelings for a girl in high school you think it’s kinda strange and that there’s something wrong with you and then you spend years struggling with your feelings and just when you’ve finally accepted yourself being lesbian you remember that your parents are low key kinda homophobic so you hide it from them cause you’re scared but you feel really guilty cause they provide everything for you and just when you start applying for colleges thinking that your whole life is going down a very steep hill you suddenly catch feelings for a guy and then you start to think everything you struggled through was just a lie and now you’re not even sure if you actually like anyone anymore and hahaha please kill me.