In my dreams

Hi! Someone pls help me this has been on my mind ever since. So I had a friend from ninth grade we were very close as 2 people can be, book buddies, songs, etc. I had a little, tiny, not that big crush on him because yk we're very very similar and then tenth grade we were not in the same class anymore naturally friendship died down as time goes by but I know my feelings for him are still there even when we go to college, even when idek what he looks like anymore. So these past few months idk what happened but he kept reappearing in my dreams I mean why after so many years!?? And last night he was there too, we were talking, laughing and it's so vivid I just want to cry I know this is crazy for me to post it here but I don't have anyone to share this with. I hope it made sense because English is not my first language. (￣ε(#￣)Σ