I was trash

So, when I was Grade 6, (at the end of my elementary days) I had a classmate. She doesn't really have friends on our section because her personality is just, such a liar. Her only friend was on the other section so she doesn't really have anyone to talk to in our class. I was a transfer student and on the first day, I talked to her and she asked me to be her friend. I didn't know much about her that time. Uhm soo.... To put it bluntly, she was being verbally bullied and was an outcast. One time, the teacher was writing something on the board and naturally, we, as the students, has to write it down. Well, some of my classmates, maybe about 5-10 didn't copy, and moments later, I saw the girl( the one getting bullied) hold a lot of notebooks, and then sitting down to write what's on the board, one by one into the notebooks (there was 5+ of them) She asked me for help and I said, "No, you wanted to do that by urself, why didn't you refuse?" And she said, " Come onnnnn pleaseee?" But I refused at the end and walked away, I thought to myself at that time, why should I write for other people? They have hands for gosh sake. And then the next day one of my friends, let's name her Cookie, asked why I talked to the girl, and I said, "Well, she considers me as her friends so there's no helping it." She told me to not get close to the girl as she's a liar, making up stories on how his grandpa won 1 million pesos or won a free laptop. My other friends also backed up Cookie's claims and since I don't really wanna be left out, I distanced myself to the bullied girl. I also said to myself that she was bad bad bad, said it to myself so many times just so that I get it in my head. When she come close to me, I would find an excuse to go away, when she talked to me, I would go away. This went on for the next 3 months, and finally, she left me alone. She befriended one of her bullies, let's name her Cupcake, cupcake was one of the person who asked her to write for her, and also made fun of her many times to count. Well you see, Cupcakes' group of friends are good at dancing and she asked the girl to dance. She denied at first but they decided to cheer, "Dance dance dance dance!" Until finally, she decided to dance. Everyone laughed at her dancing. I'm sure they were having fun, that's what I told myself.



I always saw how twisted life is if someone outcast you. The girl wasn't the only one who got outcast. There's also Cupcake, who got outcast and was the person that the whole class hated and I won't tell why hehe. It came to a point in which the principle went to our class to talks about the issue. I don't wanna dwell on the topic so I won't tell. But the whole class BASICALLY LIED all of us lied in front of Cupcake and the principle. No one stood up to protect Cupcake, no one said anything about how we were lying, even though all of us knew that we lied about such a massive issue.

Karma really is a bitch. ( For cupcake)

I wanted to shout, I wanted to say about the lies that all of them didn't expose. But I didn't, I remained as a spectator, a bystander who sayd nothing about what they were doing. I did nothing. I didn't try to say about anything because I KNOW that if I did say it, they would target me next, they would hate me and outcast me. I didn't want that, I didn't want to be alone. So, I did nothing. It made me feel pathetic and shitty. But it's like there was something that was blocking me from saying and helping. I truly am a shitty bystander.