im venting get over it

look whores ima vent real quick beacuse uhhh actully idk why yk what bc i want to and yeah.. anyways i am so fucking done likw with everything like omg like fuck this honestly like school is fucking kicking my ass rn and like uhhhh damn just give me a fucking break like jeez imagine telling your parents that you are not okay and want help bc all you think about is not being in this world anymre and yk your not healthy or mentally stable and you try explaing to them everytime u wake up its like your drowning in fucking sadness and would be less painful to die then live in this fucking world with that feeling and knowing you have nothing to look foward to and that nothing will change or make u feel any fucking better..... so imgaine telling your parents that and then them telling you that you just want fucking attention and that im just saying this bc i wanna be depressed because its ''cool''? ARe U FUCKING SERIOUS who tf raised my parents im crying for fucking help and they fr just tell me im crazy and that deppression isnt real thing and that mabey if i would go to church and be with god i would be this way....... like are u fucking serious like god damn im so fucking done i ughhhh fuck like why ..... why do i even try to get help ... i wish i had the balls to actully fucking end my life but i know that i really cant..... i even showed my parents my 7 page fucking sucicide note and they said was oh put it on the counter and continued with thier converstaion...............like im so sorry like ik yall doul care less like im just another person ranting about there depression ad life problems on here but..... im a fucking human being who is actully going through this and has absloutly no one.. NO FUCKING ONE ..... like some yall would say like talk to an adult well babes i have and they gave me a bible :) so anyways yea oh and lets not forget i fucking thought i was off of school ... but hehe no turns out my dumbass actully missed a week of school and have 2 more weeks of school until i have a break... thats my own dumbasses fault but now im failing anf the only good thing i had going for me and that i was actully proud of myself for was my grades....... LIKE CAN MY LIFE GIVE ME ONE GOOD ThiNG like please im just asking for one thing to fucking look forward to or make me slightly happy....

( idk bout my spelling btw :))
( sorry for the rant that u probably wont read and care abt :) )