i hate myself lmao

me: cuts my hair bc im dysphoric----- becomes dysphoric because i cut my hair

anyway offtopic but im literally going to cry and i hate crying bc of emotional pain its so stupid lmao
im so insecure ab my personality and i act so fucking weird all the time,, like the way i speak, act, think-- i hate it lmao
maybe its because im a child and im still learning but no one around me acts like me. no one even bullies me i just feel like i act too different
i get so disgusted with myself and i try to act like im superior or something. i dont talk to people ab my insecurities because they're all so stupid and it just makes me feel childish. the way my mom and other trans/homophobes talk ab trans and gay ppl make me feel like my whole identity is stupid. and even though barely anyone does i, the people who are like "men are gross" just make me feel bad. everything makes me feel bad

my mom told me before that i victimize myself and i think she's right. everytime i talk ab things that make me feel bad to someone, i feel like i dont even deserve their pity


im deadass on the verge of tears rn but like,,, go read Heir's Game on Line Webtoon that lgbt poc representation be making me do cartwheels