Sexual assault

I think I was around 7 or 8 years old when one of my cousin touch my private part I don't know what to do back then I lay on the bed and then I he touch me and then also one of my cousin, from my mother's side, touch my private part too. And now I'm 19 and I just found out that it is a sexual assault because that cousin showed up and then the memories came back all clear. I think this is one of the reasons why I am afraid of man now.

When I was in middle school I had a sir and that sir was a pedo and I just learned that too.

I am afraid that I will never recovered from all of this discoveries.

English is not my first language so please forgive me if I have any grammar mistake. Thank you hope u have a good day or night.