HELP

so i've been trying to suppress my bad thoughts and it worked a bit but holy shit i feel so exhausted and nervous rn. its hard to explain what i'm feeling tbh. i went outside today and i was able to suppress a lot of bad thoughts and feelings (it was still pretty bad) but now, i'm feeling anxious and i wanna cry for no reason?? has anyone else experienced this?? where they suppressed their emotions abd niw it comes to bite them back in the ass?? how do i fucking fix myself?? please help