Anyone 22 & virgin?

I just turned 22 this January. When i read mangas the idea they give off about having sex is really beautiful & pretty but when i think of it in real i find it really disgusting. I feel really insecure about my body cuz its really different what movies & mangas show the " beautiful body" type. Im scared of men in real . i see men nothing but cheating machines or horny 24/7 . Men that see nothing but to satisfy themselves. In mangas mls see feelings beyond the sex. It terrifies me that I'll never to able to get that intimacy with feelings. Its really hard for someone who has terrible trust issues , crippling anxiety & insecurities. Y'all can share your experiences if you don't mind.