I feel lonely - want to talk..?
I am 20. And it's been like 2 years since I entered college.
And it's been 2 years now that I don't really talk to anyone anymore. And until nowadays it didn't really bothered me. I felt that I didn't want/need to force friendship. To force my way into other's lives.
But I don't know why it bothers me now. In fact I do have friends. But we are not really talking or anything with most of them. And I do have a close friend. But she encountered new people, new friends, and she is really busy anyway.
I realised that I used to talk to some people I loved every day some years ago. And how fun it was..
But I'm also so shy.. Sometimes I want to punch myself. When someone comes to talk to me, I just don't know what to say. I'm so scared to be categorized as boring that I become boring.
I think that I'm thinking too much.
But right now, I want to meet knew people. And really talk to them.
I'm a fujoshi. I love when stories have a good plot, I love vocaloid music so much, I love Kingdom hearts and persona and The Last of Us and- I have a soft spot for interesting yaoi, and RP is so interesting, and- and would you be interested in speaking with me?
Who are you? What do you like? I want to know more about you
Oh Geez I can relate so much to you right now
Hmm.. I think when it comes to me when I go to college my mind just go to defence mode like.. *people please don't come near me I don't know what to say go u* ...or something like that.. I can't really explain it even though I do have a lot of friends but it's kinda hard to start a new relationship with......
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08 06,2018