I'm going to end up offing myself at this point.

My family seems even more divided after finding out about my drinking addiction. I have no idea on what to do. I've thought about just ending it all. So perhaps my parents will be brought together again. My friends told me I should ask for help and tell them the truth, but I don't want to. My suicidal thoughts and drinking addiction has been a thing since I was very young. If I tell them, my life will become worse than it already is. All they do is fight. If I die, I wouldn't have to listen to them yell at each other. I wouldn't have thoughts on hurting myself and my family members anymore. Sometimes I think about bringing them all down with me. Anyway, what should I do about this? Thank you guys for listening to my terrible venting