sexuality confused help!

like am i asexual? pansexual? bisexual? transgender? help! like i have sexual desires but i dont wanna do it with anyone or if i liked someone i will just never confess to them. i also wanna be a boy im pretty sure. thenn sometimes there are times where i am attracted to mostly girls but then there are times where i am mostly attracted to guys if that makes sense help i am super confused and scared to talk to anyone about it.