Since ya'll didn't understand my previous question

lmao its late asf here and I haven't been sleeping well so this question might not make sense either lol






so like-



at times I still like wearing cute clothes/dolling myself up and get a major confidence boost so I actually like my body for once and have enough confidence to even step outside

but there are also times where I absolutely hate doing all of that shi
I wish my chest/me would just fucking disappear and I hate that I have a roundish/girlish face
I start hating every single thing about my body and I feel very uncomfortable in my own skin. I try to look as "boyish" as I possibly can so that I won't puke when I look in the mirror. But when I do that my family starts making fun of me and shiz so the practically make me feel like shit until I feel comfortable enough to wear the clothes that they think "girls should wear"



so bleh






idk bro I haven't slept for a day or 2 so sorry this doesn't make sense or if it just sounds stupid :/