DEPRESSION RANT

ok so I feel so useless to my friends and my family and myself I hate my body I starve my self everyday because I feel like I'm not good enough for eneyone they all hate me right is that why the people that were supposed friends talk bad about me behind my back and think I'm crazy in the head wow I can't believe I exist still I'm really close to just cutting the life line and just ending it all I hate this place why can't I just be normal like all the others why do I have to be different and disappoint all the people I know why...why did I get chosen to be weird why dose it feel like they all hate me.

I'm fine right?