Getting Anxious

Hello! I can't help but get a bit anxious about a lot of manhuas/manhwas getting dropped/stopped. I'm not complaining since the authors has the right to stop it but the thing that I'm worried about is to whether or not to read the manhuas/manhwas to eventually caught up with the recent chapters just in case that if it's dropped I can buy the recent chapter legally.

Basically, because of the recent happenings I kind of push myself to read this certain manhuas/manhwas up to the recent chapter even if I don't feel like it since there is a risk that it would be dropped/stopped. I don't really mind it being dropped/stopped because again the author has the right to do so but I sometimes feel like I can't genuinely enjoy reading it since I only read it to caught up with the recent chapter just in case that it is dropped/stopped then after that I can switch to reading it legally.

Am I the only who gets anxious? I'm not angry about it being dropped/stopped but reading here has been part of my routine and I geniunely want to enjoy each story.