Am I a bottom

For butt-fuck’s sake, I’m not a bottom. I fucking feel like a sick person my stomach starts churning my ass starts bursting of shit when I think of tops like Jaekyung, Tsar, Ahjuicy, Maththew, that juice daddy from On or Off and gay slayers. And I’m telling you, I FUCKING HATE REVERSE FUCKING AKA SHITTING THAT SHIT TRIGGERING ASF I’M NEVER BOTTOMING. EVER! But fapping today while shitting I ejaculated at the same time as I let out a fat shit! ON TOP OF THAT a few days ago this morning got a real slutty boner(my fav boners of all time) but decided to first empty my bowel than jerk off. BUT MY BONER WAS GONE BY THE TIME I SHAT NO I CAME WHILST SHITTIN IM SO TAKING THIS PERSONALLY GIMME MY TOP EMPOWERMENT BONER BACKKKK(ISTG I hate getting butt fucked+reverse fucking)