Everyday I thought of doing sexual behaviours and always felt sexual about myself. I also yet romanticize about myself being raped and also some other stuff but the thought of really doing it or yet just a simple touch of someone the opposite gender just completely disgust me or yet im terrified of doing so. Im also disgusted of myself for having these thoughts and just makes me feel like a horrible person but I cant seem to stop.
Is it cause I was exposed about those stuff when I was really young and I also did sexual stuff w someone as a kid which I thought it was okay to be doing it or am I just really that kind of person.
