GL Reccomendations?

I don't know about anyone else, but Yuri has never felt like it's for me.

I'm a sapphic-inclined person and I read a lot of yaoi. Most Yuri I've seen just isn't interesting to me. Female leads don't feel like they're allowed to be masculine or hold their own (not that many yaoi protagonists can, but they receive different characterization). I'm into narratives with darker themes that involve hardship, horror, and tragedy (very shonen-esque)— and I haven't found a GL that can pull that off without feeling destitute or downright fetishistic.

Does anyone else feel this way? Or have GL Manga recommendations?

TLDR: Looking for GL that looks like BL.