pissing me off but i have no one to talk to about it

everytime i talk about one of my friends and what he does, everyone swoons bc hes so kind and caring or whatever. and yeah, he remembers what i like, he does things for me, hes comforting(to an extent) and hes a hardworking and intelligent individual in general. but that fucking mouth.

holy shit i have had actual enemies that talk nicer than him. i do things wrong, im a little ditzy, i act a little slow sure, but that gives you no right to talk down to me and give me the most disgusted face like i shat in your food. he acts like we are the same, you are white, you are not as poor as i am, or the rest of us in this city. you have friends. you have a CAR hand me down or not. you actually go to the hospital when youre sick. you have a THERAPIST.

but god forbid i watch steven universe a bit too loud, god forbid i enjoy heartstopper even a little bit, god forbid i fuck up my project in a biology lab, but at the very least dont LOUDLY declare that i fucked it up in the worst way and have my entire group laughed at.

and you didnt HAVE to tutor me in biology but me saying i didn't know ADP+phosphate counts as an input does NOT mean i dont make an effort in it and just try to memorize you, you dont fucking know what i do.

also you are the most boring individual ive ever met. for someone with so many fucking things wrong with you, you choose to talk about the most underwhelming things. no i dont wanna hear about how your toxic ex manipulated the girl you were supposed to have BLOCKED or how the guy who absolutely disrespected you a month ago stared at you during some school event or some guy crying in front of you saying he cant like you bc hes not gay is a "traumatic experience". its at best an inconvenient situation.

last year i was visibly sad and when my teacher asked you whats wrong with me you just said i "just cant hide my feelings as well as everyone else". my bad bro, but it seems like you dontdo it as well as you might think either since you make every bad day everyone elses problem.

i have no idea how so many people like you and i also have no idea why you would say you hate heartstopper bc its stereotypical. nga YOU are a stereotypical gay. youre a stereotypical everything and i genuinely woukdnt be surprised if you had a fucking cheese drawer or some shit. also kys i hate every lab we have bc working even in the same room as you is fucking unbearable