Why did I start feeling this way?

I came to realize I’m a lesbian back in 2017 when I was still in high school. Since 2020, I’ve been really into GL and BL stories, but lately, something strange has been weighing on me. Up until 2021, I could watch straight media and shoujo anime/manga without much thought. Romance was just part of the story.

But now, whenever I watch shows or read manga with straight couples, especially ones that focus heavily on romance, I feel this deep, heavy sadness in my chest. It’s like a painful reminder of something I can’t quite put into words. I’ve started avoiding those kinds of stories because it just hurts too much, and I don’t fully understand why.


Has anyone else gone through this?