does reading rapey yaoi make u a bad person?

honestly im fucking tired reading the same shit in different fonts. as a beginner artist i appreciate the artstyle and colouring and lighting and hot men but i feel so shitty while reading it. And i feel cringy and a bit ashamed when i discuss sauces with bl readers especially at school. Wym u liked jinx, pearl boy, roses and champagne etc etc. Do you have the guts to explain the plot to an audience without getting branded as a creepy incel? Wym u find seme so hot and badass? i wouldn't wish what happened to the ukes to my sworn enemy even if the sworn enemy happened to beat the living daylights out of me. Honestly read manhwas whenever my mental health was in the gutter or if i had a bad breakdown, but now i have realized its not good for my brain if i wanted to be some semblance of a good person. I am so tired.