What's a secret you have that u have never told anybody?

when i was in 1st grade i had the biggest crush on the nurse at the school clinic and every other day or week (cant rmr) during a class id deliberately ask to go to the clinic and pretend that i was like not feeling well and i always told the nurse that my body was tired or something and i wanted to go sleep but i would actually lay on the bed, open a sliver of the curtains and stare at him while he was working and waited til he would wake me up and ask how i was feeling. so then one day i asked to go to the clinic again but this time i told the nurse i couldnt breathe or something thinking he'd tell me to go lay down but then he gave me like a paper bag and told me to like breathe in and breathe out but i didnt rlly understood what he meant so like for a few minutes i just kept breathing rapidly into the paper bag and he thought that i was hyperventilating and called my teacher and my parents but i felt so bad about lying because he was like really worried so i just kept pretending i couldnt breathe and the guilt hit me hard and i burst out crying infront of him and then i went home and cried in my bed. i never faced him that day and eventually switched schools