Shit is hard to let go lets be fr

Honestly no matter how shitty my bf became i can't lie at some point... he was a good person genuinely. I know hes shitty rn and have treated me horribly but moving in is fucking hard cus nigga dont tell me "he treared you like shit." bitch i know! thats what hurts the most and hard to accept but at the same time yk He was once a nice hoe and i can't let go of narrative so quickly and easily. The shit we had was still real, all the bond and happiness. Why would i throw that away? honestly i wish i could just say "oh cus hes lied about some shit" but dude committed crimes on me. "Its the present that matters" yeah but like damn i felt sorry seeing him behind bars crying "i didnt know i became a monster" cus he was acting like that out of jealousy and deep obsession towards me. I was loved by a monster. Its hard to move on when u know they actually cared and loved you but wasnt handling shit in the best way. 3 years.