I need LOVE HELP!!!!!

Guys i probably shouldnt take this to mangago of all places but
IDK
So basically like i want a girlfriend or maybe even boyfriend
(im still figuring that out) BUT whenever i feel like i might like a girl romantically and i think abt it fir more than 5 seconds i
feel like.. DISGUSTED?? But also i cant imagine myself dating a man and GENUINELY liking it…

i dont know if me telling everyone at my school that in 100%
straight and like noot into anime or anything has to do with it or not because i would definitely be bullied if i were ti be open
about that

But also its not just me um feeling disgusted i also feel that way when its someone else that likes me (for both men and women..) … even when i like kind of (???) feel something towards them

But basically i just NEED to know if in being dramatic or theres genuinely something wrong with me and like maybe even
advice or something okay thank you i love most of u pls dont
bash me