Have you ever attempted? If so how did it go?

I don't really feel like living anymore cus I've transitioned and I'm happy but the insults I hear from people around and how fake people are. I have some supporting friends but I've been informed this would affect my studies and when I keep asking why it's because I'm messing up their dress codes when can't I just wear the boys nurse outfit? Why does the nurse fit has to be a tight fitted skirt. It's so fucking uncomfy and some perverts stare at me and sometimes even film me! Specially when i still didn't have breast surgery. I did follow but the way my professors genuinely say "I'm going to regret this" because there has been cases of that people that did so. It makes me think that if I kms everyone would see my pain.