Do I have a chance? (Gaslight me)

I have a classmate who I liked since middle school, we're at the tenth grade now and are still classmates. Idk if its middle school but I think I like him for about 3 years now? I'm a gae who hasnt come out of the closet lol I said im Bi even thought im not lolol. ok so this dude classmate mine who I really like is STRAIGHT but Im so f*cking delusional, He always talk to me online send me tiktok vids or reels etc etc so it makes me really delusional ehe~ Aside from him being straight, he's also really popular and the top of the class(actually the whole grade level) He's handsome so a lot girls really like him but he rejectrd them all (im so glad) Also he's the type of guy to tease me and call me gae jokingly which makes me blush LMAOO CRINGE. He also said that he likes some1 back then but easily ends his feelings lolol but now I dont see any signs of him having a crush or gf as he said that he will only stary dating someone at the age of 20, so like I dont know anymoreeeee aaaaaa its really hard to stop liking him cuz he is so nice to me and aaaaaaaaaaa(⊙…⊙ )