I want a girlfriend

Recently, I think about the fact that I want a girlfriend (I'm a wlw) but at the same time I'm like I have mental health issues like anxiety about wind making me scared to go outside, I have psychosis and I feel empty sometimes
So even if I find someone and it's rather smooth, it'll be difficult to go on dates because I'll be scared to go outside and because of my mental health issues I could be a burden for my lover, complaining about stuffs
And also I want to move out in another country, like Thailand or Spain so I need to find someone that want that too
So I don't know, maybe I should wait, but at the same time my mental health issues are not gonna stop soon
What do you think?