Since I have no one to talk about this to might as well just say it here

You're parents care for you. They know what's happening and being "nice" to you is them trying to show this but they don't know how to approach you as much you don't know how to approach them.

You're going through a lot, physically mentally and hormonally so it's okay to feel like you don't have a grip. That's normal for this period of your life,

Ask them to play some kind of board game or a family night where you guys can "play" together...these moments are so precious and you're so lucky to have a mom and dad there

understandable

Maybe depends on what they did, I'm not the best person for this tho so read my opinion as just a dumb opinion.

If the actions she did is something like abuse or something that left a deep scar, ignoring her is valid, I'd say even if you cannot come to care for her in future it's alright. The awkwardness might be hard for a while but maybe with time, new things might take over this feeling.


But if it's awkwardness and just small things that piled up and exploded, that can maybe forgiven, maybe do try to improve the relation. This doesn't mean you're dramatic, we're all humans and we all get frustrated at times and make mistakes, sometimes could be something hurtful to others. It's normal part of life but doesn't mean it's right, it is also normal to follow up with an apology or maybe an action to amend with the person hurt. Just start off having small talks with them and slowly when the awkwardness is gone, try asking them about how they're doing or such.
Everyone prob has fights with their parents but still if they're good parents usually, that means they'd probably understand if you're going through hard times and try to help you too.

Take care tho

Don't be dramatic at all. I've been there too, might not have been the same situation but I had that same feeling but with only my father. It's perfectly normal to feel that way since we're all human at the end of the day. It might be a defensive mechanism you created because you feel like you can't trust your own parents, there's always something they might be plotting behind their actions. It's OK
I'll take a guess you live in a quiet household where emotions aren't discussed openly minded?
In my case, I started caring about myself a lot and valuing what's valuable to me and always be respectful with my parents because they gave me a shelter and even though they weren't that good as a parent, they only live once too and mistakes can be made and not everyone knows how to educate, buy not tryna divert me from the subject, I started to value more my family because nobody lives forever and I too just accepted what might come. What you feel its ok to feel it. And slowly you can try to talk with then by how their day was or try to show some funny tricks to them. Ofc it might not be funny for them, but if I had a child who liked go stay around me or like worry about me even for a bit I would be so happy. Idk vary much abt your situation at home so im going to be brief. Focus first on yourself and be respectful to your parents. Thats the priority. Be yourself. Don't be scared, you still got a long way to go and the past won't come back

about whether you are being dramatic or not. its not dramatic. because i understand what you are going through. i was grown up with both my parents trying to one up each other. its like showing who can love and take care of me more. having to lie to each parent about being fed well while in reality i ate fast food. it never ever feels genuine to me when either of them show me care because back in my head its always that tiny voice saying maybe its because they want to show off.

OMG SAME. now that shes growing older, its making me wanna make peace with her yknow. i get you very very much. i gave up on understanding my father bc hes never taken the time to understand me but my mom? different story. i feel like i dont care if she never understands me but in reality i might lose my shit if i actually lose her completely.