Context : summer job in a bucolic/natural camping site kind of in the middle of nowhere. This special colleague started 2 weeks later in the month. We immediately hang out and one week after his arrival we went on a long hike around the campsite. We talked about everything n anything, cusThere was... a sort of connection. We talked about love life at some point and he told me that he tend to fall rapidly in love and the STOP/turning down must be pretty clear otherwise he might develop further stronger feelings. When we came back to our "staff shack" (tents to sleep n a long old rustic house with bathroom and kitchen) around dinnertime, he told my at the threshold : so can you turn me down now ? *sad shy face* ╥﹏╥ He was SO CUTE. Like. I liked him fine, it was one the right tracks (which is RARE for me since i'm kind of demi-romatic - i didn't labeled it that way at the time), so i told him no, but not bc i'm disgusted or anything, just bc it's too early to state anything ?? Like i knew him for a week and i'm not to onboard for summer hook ups. He was sad but glad that things were clear and limits posed.
Bonus : my colleagues were eating (bc the kitchen is in the entrance yeah i know it's peticuliar but that's ol' Normandie longhouses for you) and heard everything since they were right behind the old door. So i think THAT kind of embarrassed him.
I could end there but....
We stayed in touch, then nothing for a long time, then we stared videocalling everything for a few months bc he was doing an internship in another country, and i started falling pretty bad myself (the feelings where THERE from the start but like... it was way too early like i said). We met again when he had the occasion to come back in France for a few days. We made the best of it and since i was staying at my parents house it sleep there and met my parents. Kind of special moment. We went to a Waterpark (my mom work there it's CenterParc yk). Really special time. He went back in Rennes to meet some friends and we hugged n kissed (on the cheek) on the plateform. I wanted to be clear that i liked him, but opening up would take a bit more time. And it was clear he was as interested as me so i felt safe to confess.
Then coincidence, i went back in Rennes a few days later (yeah since i study there) and could meet him again just before he had to go back to continue his internship. I gave him a t-shirt bc it was his birthday. I talked about us with his friends to have their opinions on this relationship (bc they knew him well and were kind of confident). They told me that he saw *this* as a loving/romantic relationship, but short term, not "love of for long years" relationship. But i was. Kind of really falling in love for a long term.
SO. Pretty sad we did not align and honestly i still have residual love for him bc he's really great. I mostly thought it was a missed occasion bc i'm sure it would have been great together, but not if it's ephemeral. And i didn't want to still go with it just to say that i satisfied my feelings of having a official relationship. In the end I'm mostly just sad/angry/disappointed ? that we don't talk anymore cus i think it was just motivated by romantic interest on his end.
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Context : summer job in a bucolic/natural camping site kind of in the middle of nowhere.
This special colleague started 2 weeks later in the month. We immediately hang out and one week after his arrival we went on a long hike around the campsite. We talked about everything n anything, cusThere was... a sort of connection.
We talked about love life at some point and he told me that he tend to fall rapidly in love and the STOP/turning down must be pretty clear otherwise he might develop further stronger feelings.
When we came back to our "staff shack" (tents to sleep n a long old rustic house with bathroom and kitchen) around dinnertime, he told my at the threshold : so can you turn me down now ? *sad shy face* ╥﹏╥
He was SO CUTE. Like. I liked him fine, it was one the right tracks (which is RARE for me since i'm kind of demi-romatic - i didn't labeled it that way at the time), so i told him no, but not bc i'm disgusted or anything, just bc it's too early to state anything ?? Like i knew him for a week and i'm not to onboard for summer hook ups.
He was sad but glad that things were clear and limits posed.
Bonus : my colleagues were eating (bc the kitchen is in the entrance yeah i know it's peticuliar but that's ol' Normandie longhouses for you) and heard everything since they were right behind the old door. So i think THAT kind of embarrassed him.
I could end there but....
We stayed in touch, then nothing for a long time, then we stared videocalling everything for a few months bc he was doing an internship in another country, and i started falling pretty bad myself (the feelings where THERE from the start but like... it was way too early like i said). We met again when he had the occasion to come back in France for a few days. We made the best of it and since i was staying at my parents house it sleep there and met my parents. Kind of special moment. We went to a Waterpark (my mom work there it's CenterParc yk). Really special time.
He went back in Rennes to meet some friends and we hugged n kissed (on the cheek) on the plateform. I wanted to be clear that i liked him, but opening up would take a bit more time. And it was clear he was as interested as me so i felt safe to confess.
Then coincidence, i went back in Rennes a few days later (yeah since i study there) and could meet him again just before he had to go back to continue his internship. I gave him a t-shirt bc it was his birthday.
I talked about us with his friends to have their opinions on this relationship (bc they knew him well and were kind of confident). They told me that he saw *this* as a loving/romantic relationship, but short term, not "love of for long years" relationship. But i was. Kind of really falling in love for a long term.
SO. Pretty sad we did not align and honestly i still have residual love for him bc he's really great. I mostly thought it was a missed occasion bc i'm sure it would have been great together, but not if it's ephemeral. And i didn't want to still go with it just to say that i satisfied my feelings of having a official relationship. In the end I'm mostly just sad/angry/disappointed ? that we don't talk anymore cus i think it was just motivated by romantic interest on his end.
Voilà my sad almost acted love story ╮(￣▽￣)╭
i puked on them.