I hate being unlucky and traumatized
I want to talk about this with someone bc my boyfriend doesn't get me at all but I will say a bit of my childhood, when I was a kid I got sexual assaulted by some kids bigger than me like of 7 when I was 4-5 years old , by then that was my first trauma , then I had another trauma at 9 years old when a grow ass man sent me a pick of his dickui when I said I didn't want to and then a lot of traumas bc of pedophiles on the internet.
Last year a pedophile I met stupid me by saying him my direction came to my house and almost had sex with me giving me a disgusting french kiss that I didn't even like bc I'm still young and saw my boobs. My parents took my phone for 1 year and now I have I again since 6th of may. I am scared of my father , I consider him as a "pedophile" for the way he acts with me and he's not even my biological father. One time I saw his dick accidentally reflected on the mirror in the bathroom as the door was half open , another time happened the same and 2 days ago the door of the dorm of my parents was half open and ik they had sex but I saw AGAIN the dick of my father accidentally and now I have a trauma for him and I'm scared of confronting him, plus I'm scared of men and dick's somehow bc of that but still obv I read yaoi I have a boyfriend etc.Now I'm 13 years old will do 14 and idk but I will say I'm proud I found this site and yaois sometimes they're a comfort zone for me if there is a lot of love in the relationship.
IM SORRY FOR THIS LONG ASS SHIT I WANTED TO TALK ABOUT MY TRAUMAS WITH SOMEONE BC I CAN'T ANYMORE ABOUT THIS
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Really sorry to hear about the stuff you've gone through, you did not deserve any of it at all. Only advice i can really give is to just move out your house when you can in future and until then just stay under the radar.
Also, while the internet is tempting, make sure to always keep your privacy and ALWAYS keep even a bit of doubt on EVERYONE online. Even rn think of me as a complete stranger too that could be harmful. Do not give away your information or things that would harm you at all. And if you ever find yourself in trouble, make sure to keep yourself as first priority, and always call the authorities for help, please do not think of it as embarrassing. Your life is much more important.
Also if you can affort it, or maybe in future, try going to therapy to help heal from your past.
Take care <3
Tysm for care about me ^^ and dw I will not do that.. people on the internet and in real life scare me , humans in general but still thanks for the advice