comfort me.

i just got back from my hall.
this exam is no joke its like a matter of life if i fucked up then my whole life career is over, i have been studying for it for the past 3 years ive been stressed waiting for it and guess what? i fucked up. i did so bad. i dont even know if im gonna pass anyway it was so hard the exam was 2 hours and half and the time was still not enough in these 2 hours i experienced all type of emotions stressed panicked sadness and breakdown i really thought id do way better i feel so burnt out what made it worse is that ik or she is more like a friend all she did in these past 3 years was fuck around and being a slut for guys and barley studying, as we left the exam she was happy dancing saying the exam was easy while i was breaking down. i never felt that way i wish this was a dream I'm waiting for a moment to just wake up and realize that was all dream and nothing more how can life be this unfair? she was all dressed up and had make up on while i looked like shit panicking (before the exam started) and already had 2 break downs in the early morning before i left my house i was hitting my head and punching myself praying god take me from this life..im trying to forget about this exam cuz there is another important one soon but ive been struggling so hard with my mental health and have 0 time to heal but if i stayed like this im definitely gonna fuck up this upcoming one too i feel 0 motivation to study i dont know what to do.