how to people?

Don't get me wrong I've had friends before. Whatever that means...

I'm just confused on how people can trust others completely. I am disillusioned by everyone i have ever met. No one is perfect and obviously I'm aware of that, but I don't think that's a fact that I'll ever be ok with.

That's not to say I'm perfect. Far from it really lmao...
It's just I feel like I will always want to isolate myself cause there will always be something wrong and not "normal" with the way i live and i will always find something wrong with everyone in my life.

If you witness someone do a single thing wrong how will you ever be able to look past that? I'll never forget and we'll never go back to normal. At least not in my mind.

Even if someone seems "perfect" I will never know what they are thinking and they could think I'm terrible and awful. Even that I find fault with.

Is the problem that I care too little? Or that I care too much? Am I just looking for excuses to punish myself by pushing everyone else away?

I think I'm just someone who will never be able to trust others or myself.