what the fuck is wrong with me?
I FUCKING HATE IT HERE I HOPE I DIE RIGHT THE FUCK NOW IVE BEEN PRAYING ON MY DEATH SINCE I WAS 14 AND NOTHING IS CHANGING I DONT WANT TO LIVE THIS LIFE
ANYWAY ,so something weird happened i was sleeping at my aunties house for like 3 weeks i believe or 2 not sure so when i came back home i had this weird feeling and its like idk how to explain it but its like i wasnt happy that i went back home more like i dont want to go back home even tho i wasnt doing anything special at my aunts house i was actually studying there didnt leave the house, ate, drank and slept and studied as i said, nothing new but here is the thing i always did sleepovers at friends houses my auntie my other auntie and stuff and we would do fun shit and when i go back home i never felt a feeling like that, its weird and at night i started crying i was not happy i just wanted to go back at aunts house.
does anyone know why i felt like that i keep thinking about it cuz it was strange and it lasted for like 2 more days just depressed that i went back home.
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I think you need a change of scenery in your life. Your home make you feel stuck or lost or sometimes it might feel like someone else controlling you entirely. You don't feel like yourself at your home. It may be because of many reason but mostly one common factor is when you at home you don't see yourself progressing which leads you having second thoughts about your life. So, once in a while going outside or live anywhere other than home
and wtf am i supposed to do when i cant change like i cant go outside (dont ask why) much neither change where i live do i have to deal with it?
imagine us having hot naked sex ..
If you can't change it, then accept it. Adopt a dog or start journaling or do something you like or enjoy like a hobby something
CAN YOU LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE. I DONT WANT TO HAVE HOT NAKED SEX WITH YOU.
thank you sm you helped me feel better ill try doing that
Or Google "self-reflection questions to know yourself better". These questions gives you clarity about yourself and what you value.
I think it could be that you were comfortable there, It happens when we are in a environment which is peaceful? Depends on how you feel at home and at your aunt's place. Maybe write everything down in detail and analyse it? Might help.
thanks for advising me i will try that out
in my head were having hot naked sex right now
this shit aint funny im crashing out rn