Death
Hi guys, I know this isn’t like a “good” place to talk about this, but I just wanted to get it out now.
Today, I found out that someone dear to me died, but they didn’t die now, but earlier in year. I was sitting my A-levels during this period, so I guess my parents didn’t want to let me know in case in may disrupt me during the exams.
When I found out about it, I didn’t really have much of a reaction, like I wasn’t balling my eyes out like my siblings, I was just sat there not saying a word or thinking much of it. I am a crier, like reading or watching something sad tends to make me cry, like even the smallest of things, but when it comes to people’s deaths, I don’t tend to feel much. Is this weird?
But I also feel a hint of guilt, probably because I should have known. If I was in contact with them, if I just talked to them a bit more, I would have found out something wasn’t right, they were with me since I was young, so I’m feeling a bit empty now, but still, no sadness no nothing, but I do feel relief, knowing that she’s in a better place now
Grief hits everyone differently. It's okay to take time to process things. We think we feel nothing but it ll hit all at once. Or in waves. Or both. But we will feel it.. the only thing we can do now to honour their life is to keep their memories. Remember them from time to time. And remember the love you have for them and the love they have for yo......
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